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Looking back, I was among those who share and do the same thing every New Year. As the fireworks illuminate the sky, I list my new year's resolution. I compile my all year photos and share it on my social media account thinking I had the best of life the whole year. I’m not sure if this is a trend but I’m pretty sure it became a tradition. But as the common saying, change is the only constant in the world. Since 2017, I no longer follow the norm of New Year’s Celebration. It is 3 years in a row that my celebration became a nightmare. Just this year, I started to hate celebrations.
I grew up in a big family. I have five siblings and I am the youngest. My family is my strength and so my weakness. We have a very simple life. We may not be able to get everything but I can say we have enough and this is the thing I am grateful with God every day. As the years go past, we’ve been through ups and downs which we were able to win together. But there are things that left a great impact on my life. I am the scar masterpiece of God as time went by. I rarely talked about this, but now I admit, sometimes the people we cared so much are the one who wounded as the deepest.
The moment I understand most things, I experienced a lot of worst which involves my family, sadly it happens every time there is a celebration. Those life happenings caused me to have an anxiety disorder if this is how it is named. I was traumatized by certain events which up to now I have to deal and fight with. And just this January 1, 2019, it happened again WITHOUT a surprise. For two consecutive years, I spent my 1st day of the year in the hospital. Now tell me if this is something to celebrate with?
Anyway, as I always say, the Hopes in me never dies. Life is full of unexpected things. It is like a roller coaster and it’s our choice to scream and just enjoy the ride. For me, I am just grateful to everything I have. I wanna look at the loops and curves as a challenge to my learning goals. I may not understand all the things right now but I’m lifting it to God. In time, I will be healed and I’m excited about this.
I look forward to a successful 2019 for every one of us. May YOU have the best of this year. I would love to hear your comments and how you celebrated New Year. By this, it will give me more hope.
CHEERS and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!
