Now that she turned a year younger, (ha ha ha) I have nothing in my heart but praises to God for giving me another time and chance to look forward to more memories we'll create together. I always say she is among my greatest gift, her life is a gift to me.

Our friendship is a proof that no matter how impossible thing is, it will happen, only if we choose to. We are enemies who became best of friends because we decided to open our mind and heart to understand more than letting jealousy and hate win over our lives.

 

I wish the best of everything for her (she knows this) on this special day. I will always be proud that she's now part of the story I'm writing and livin' with. Let me say THANK YOU and HAPPIEST BURPDAY Janice Ann Caranguian. To this buddy, I love you :) I didn't post long cheesy messages on social medias but I hope this article proves that I really appreciate your existence in this world.

Do you have a story of things seems impossible? I would love to hear it.

Today I woke up with a heavy heart wishing I'm sharing you my recent adventure in Hongkong but here I am doing otehrwise. I’m afraid of life.

Life is been good to me for long now, this is the thing most people see. Who would have thought that a girl staying at home with SOMEHOW a fulfilling career (as they thought) is experiencing a heavy life? Many would want to be in my position. Many claimed I am free from stress; the stress of traffic and waking up early just not to be late, stress to the employer and concerns with work-colleagues and more, with these, they imagined I am completely happy. They believed I’m stress-free and living a toxic-free life. Who would have considered that the safest haven, HOME, is sometimes the place of pain? No one sees how I pressure my self-everyday just to get what I have. No person knows how I strive hard to laugh with the pain, fear, doubt and other things in my hearts. No one knows the pages I follow on social media just to get a post of daily encouragement to continue living. Little did they know, I’m afraid that material things would end up having worth more than me. I’m afraid of life.

It is one of my greatest dreams to inspire, to be a GREAT GREAT GREAT inspirational speaker. But now I’m asking myself how can I fulfill a dream in a world where I can’t find my self. Yes, I’m lost. I don’t even know my self now. I can’t find my purpose. I’m living in pain secretly and no one has figured it out because they see me laugh but never cry. No one sees the dark picture of my life. I’m afraid of life.

Right now I’m on my headset listening and singing a song with my computer pouring my self out. But no one knows this. Not even a single person knows what I’m writing now. No one knows I’m telling a dark side of my life (only me knows) to who may ever read this. They see me breathing but didn't know I’m dying, slowly dying inside. The pain and fear I’m holding for too long are slowly eating me up AGAIN. These are making me doubt my worth. They are killing my reasons to live. I’m afraid to continue living. I’m fed up trying to be perfect because no matter what I do, I am judged. I’m afraid to make mistake. I’m afraid of life.

Some of you might judge me for posting this. I know there are people whose a life worst than mine, whose facing problems bigger than mine. But just this time, just now I want to give this to myself. I didn’t write this for no reason. I didn’t write just to let you know what I’m going through. Not to share you my problems nor to gain pity and attention. I just want to raise awareness that each of us has a dark path to go through. Each of us is been challenging by life. As much as we can, let us help each other. Encourage each other and support one another. We may be having a different journey, but we are living the same life. 

Please do something good today. Give your best smile to someone, you don't know how much they need it. Throw your weirdest joke, someone might be longing for a laugh. Spill out your greatest dream, one might be needing this to get inspired. Inspire as much as you can.

This post is not for my blog to get traffic, not even sure if someone is really visiting my blog. Just this time, I want to be me. A normal person taking responsibility for everything written here. I am in fear of judgment right this moment, but I just want to express, I just want to share. What you’ve read here is not the whole me, it is only a portion of me, just please take note of this. Btw, I don’t need pity, just a word of encouragement and twenty cups of COFFE (lol) to win my life.

I also want to share that while I woke up with a pain in my chest, someone sent me some words from God. I know it is HIM, I praise HIM for sending someone to make me realized that He is just around. I don’t need to die just to see and be with HIM, I only need to look down my heart, He is here. I need to hold on to this because He knows Who I Am. Justt now, please let me be who I Am and what I feel.

Please tune up as I'll be writing my lookbook in HongKong soon. Very soon....

Hey everyone! We're already on the third week of September yet I haven' written anything here. Bad and good things happened in the past weeks which made me really busy.

Just recently, September 15, 2018,  our place was directly hit by a typhoon Mangkhut which caused an extensive damage to agriculture and infrastructure. The typhoon left us with too many litters to clean off. Lucky us, our house wasn't damaged. But most of all, the typhoon left us with so many lessons to learn from. This proven the world that in the most needed time, we, Filipinos will stand for each other; that we will cry and laugh together after the worst of our day.

Let's forget the bad and move forward with the good things in life. September 19, 2018, is my born day. Blessed enough that I was given another day to celebrate my added year. I thanked those who remembered my day and celebrated with me.  Friends from afar also made me felt so special that no distance would hinder them to made feel well-loved. Of course, my family will never get absent on my special day. I received a lot of well wishes and gift to these special people. But what I am really grateful for is my life which I offered to God. All I really have is praises for HIM.

Happy Birthday to me and to those people who celebrated their birthdays on the same day! Have a good day!

I am someone who used to lipsticks, and lip tints and stains will always be different for me. But for the sake of being on trend (lol), I tried giving this product a fair chance to know if it will fit for me too.

I ordered then a Vice lip and cheek tint (seswang) to Beautymnl.com. The product claimed that it is a water-based tinted formula for a look that’s gandang fresh. It is said to specially formulate for easy blending; intensely pigmented and a long-lasting for vibrant color that stays put; lightweight texture that delivers all-day comfort; paraben-free; cruelty-free, and PETA certified.  It took 5 days for me to received the product and I am impressed with the service by Ninjavan.

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My thought?? The product is good. I wasn’t able to get the shade I expected but it isn’t bad at all. The scent is sweet however I am not as comfortable as I feel like it dries my lips tho it doesn't. The packaging is also nice plus the doe foot applicator. It doesn't fade easily unless you’ve eaten especially something oily. But for the price, I believed it is worth it. It is affordable and hopefully more shades to come.
I would love to try another shade in the future. It isn’t a bad experience for the first time. Thanks, Vice Co and Hi Vice Ganda!

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Hey Hey Everyone! Who’s a fan of TagSen love team here? Are you familiar with Taguro and Sensui? You might be thinking of the famous Ghost Fighter characters but nope, I’m talking about the most kilig tandem of Maxpein and Deib from an addictive novel came from a playful and intelligent imagination of the lodi Maxine Lat Calibuso. If you are a jijieras like me, then definitely you can relate to me.

Okay okay to those who aren’t familiar with it, this is a story of two hearts who were destined to meet in a strange way. Maxpein Zin del Valle - Moon is the mysterious, cold, weird, yet an intelligent woman who will capture the heart of a naughty, bully and kinda slow character of Deib Lhor Enrile. This is a not an ordinary love story where the Prince save her Princess because everything we expect happens otherwise. The story rounds on how the two souls will conquer the adventures that life brings to them. How a handsome full of pride Deib will fall to an ordinary chubby and not so beautiful Maxpein? How will fire melt the ice? How does hate turn into love? Will they prove that the more you hate, the more you love? How will they grow together then? Is really He’s into Her?

This is a story of time value, acceptance, forgiveness, and love. Will time affects the love they have for each other?  Will acceptance be their reason to stay strong? Will forgiveness mends every pain they gain? Will their love conquer even their differences? There are so many unpredictable happenings in this story. 

I suggest you read this and witness how two different people will fight for a happy ever after in a world full of actions and betrayals. The complete story (Season 1-3) can be read on Wattpad. Or you can grab your copies too,  available on leading bookstores nationwide. I also suggest the JiJi online shop. But I’m warning you, the story is addictive. Read at your own risk!

Oh btw, I just want to comment that this story made me fall in love with the imaginary idea of  North Korea... Mmm Sorry! Spoiler alert!

Hey hey everyone! The past week was incredibly an awesome yet busiest time for my work so I haven’t much time spent on my blog. But hey yah, I missed this!

Hey hey hey to the Mothers in the world and to all the father/mother in one. Happy happy  happiest Mother's day to all of you.

Thank you so much for bringing us all here in this world. And for loving and protecting us endlessly. Thank you for being our living super hero. You may feel like unwanted or unloved sometimes, but I just want to let you know that all your efforts and love didn't go unnoticed. That deep inside our hearts, you are well love. That no matter how many fights we had, we are still grateful. The truth is, we can write a NOVELS of  good things just to thank you. We will always recognize that there is miracle in a mothers love.  Love Love Love you Momshies!!!!

(Special Shout out to my Mommy Dear. We Love you Sooooooo Much!)